Circulatory Collapse

August 22nd was the date of my first appointment at the endocrinology. I was very nervous but everybody was nice and understanding. They wanted a blood test. For the record: despite having multiple piercings and other modifications, I am extremely scared of those. My veins are thin and I do not bleed easily. So there... Continue Reading →

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Liebster Award – Discover New Blogs

The Liebster Award is an award that exists only on the internet, and is given to bloggers by other bloggers. The earliest case of the award goes as far back as 2011. Liebster in German means dearest, beloved, pleasant, valued, favourite, and endearing (I'm sorry but as a German myself I had to delete the... Continue Reading →

This isn’t Bravery

⌈This might me triggering for those suffering from depression and/or dysphoria⌋ People tell me, how brave I am for taking this path. For transitioning. They talk about it as if I am some sort of hero. But I'm really not. What exactly is brave about this journey? This is not a choice. It was forced upon me.  Being... Continue Reading →

Why Asexuals Belong to LGBT+

There've been several posts claiming that Asexuals don't experience oppression at all. Never have and never will be. So here I am, publishing this post with all the research you need to stop being an aphobic. Education is the key. Sadly those who say things like stated above don't even know what Asexuality is. Here's the... Continue Reading →

The Childhood I Never Had

We're in the Zoo, letting the kids play for a while. I watch them. I can see a group of boys jumping and running around. Kicking, hitting, laughing. "My muscles are bigger than yours!" Sitting in a cafe I can see a group of guys outside. Teasing each other, talking about how their voice changes, laughing. I can... Continue Reading →

Hurt Feelings & Missing Freedom

I'm back from my little trip. Back home from Edinburgh. The day I woke up at 4am to go back was a sad one. I wanted to stay, because I knew as soon as I'm back I'll me misgendered again. I'll be hurt again. I'll be worried about not being masculine enough. Because in Scotland... Continue Reading →

Let Me Run Away For a While

I feel stuck. Stuck in life, in my transitioning. Even though I am now officially diagnosed as transgender and will recieve HRT starting October. I feel stuck. Honestly I just wanted to run away, but where to go? I don't want to stay somewhere all by myself. And as I was thinking to myself when... Continue Reading →

Forced Patience

Whenever I'm talking with other transgender men about how much it sucks having to wait, they usually end up telling me that I just need to be patient. That patience is the key. And I catch myself telling other fellow transgender online the very same thing. I think this is the biggest lie we are... Continue Reading →

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